fate

oh how your words whisper

of such grand designs

leading us toward a future

whatever your heart inclines

promises full of hope

a garden willing to grow

an audience of suspense

for which the wine would flow

yet sad and lonely on a hill

the smallest ones await

we simply forgot to ask one thing

were you drunk when you sealed our fate?

Do no harm

After all this time
It lies there
Hidden still
But awake
And alive
I cannot beat it
Cannot cut it off
Or starve it out
Given only a little hope
It springs to life
And takes control
Like a child
It must be guided
Taught to nourish
Encourged to expand
And in all things
Do no harm

Dead and dying

Why do you run
So far and so fast
I reach out
Take your hand
you linger
For a broken moment
Amoung the dead
and dying grass
Then run too fast
To far away
To see the tender
Of spring green
Pushing toward the sun
Your hand slips
And you vanish somewhere
Behind the garden wall
I am nothing to fear
I cry
Only here to love
Dear friend
Confused I wonder
If you fear your own heart
More than you ever
feared mine

Cursing pandora

The box had lain there
for months
It held everything
Every hate, love, trust and fear
It held it all safely
Securely
Some days it called
Others it mocked

Finally I had to open it
And pour everything out
Like wine it poured red
And you were with me
We opened it together
With hope, we began to sort
To pick up the pieces

But the pieces were broken
didn’t fit anymore
And I read every word
Then over again
Yet even between the lines
There was no room for me

I began to doubt
Why were you here
You had grown bored
With your toys
So many times before

I closed the box
cursing pandora
And watched you
wander away

a shrug and a smile

as she spoke of mundane things
her eyes sparkled
and i watched them dance
bright, bright points of light
hypnotizing, mezmerizing
dancing in the pale gloaming
as though sunrise were upon us
instead of a dying day
dragging away my own eyes
sparing myself maybe
of falling in love again
i fell again
to her lips
each word spoken
a whisper in my ear
what she said
as i watched them move
is still unclear yet
even as they parted to breathe
i felt them on my skin
my own mouth hanging slack
wanting
needing
as i watched her speak
tasting each word

fruit forbidden
i was lost
so incredibly lost
when finally i returned from
where i had gone

‘what are you thinking’ she said
i could only offer a shrug and a smile
answering, ‘wondering what to do next’

too late

i am broken

by the things i’ve made

run from me

if you can

cause i’ll love you

and then it will be

too late

too late

lighting will crash

hands already burned

where they

touched you last

your will to

tremble and shake

hold on

i’m in love

Life (a fibonacci poem)

lust

love

longing

absolute

find a way through life

live your fullest and laugh out loud

for Cat

a piece of her here
a piece of her there
love oh love she does
both one and the other
blinded by grace
to hurt no one
how long will her heart
be torn thus
one way
and the other
when will she find joy
in greaving one
and loving the other

Happy Birthday Cat!

more

i read the words

every day

each day

a new wound opens

a new cut bleeds

and i watch

as it wells to the surface

wondering if

today is the day

i learn to hate

more

than I learned to love

passionately

why can’t i

turn and face you

caress your cheek

slide my fingers

into your hair

pull you into me

and kiss you

tentatively

gently

firmly

passionately

breathlessly